I spoke previously about how much I love road trips. Yesterday’s journey was odd… Probably because it’s the same road travelled as we’ve done many times before: Our children watched DVDs of a show we’ve seen previously. We have the best restaurants that we’ve enjoyed in the past marked out on a map. We stop in “Small Town USA” for gas and a stretching of the legs. We even stay in the same hotels because of the comfort and service we like.
However, with this “sameness” has brought something I never thought possible. A sense of déjà vu has overwhelmed me. Not because of the locations or the route we used, but rather everything and everyone else. My interactions with the cashiers at the gas stations seemed repetitive, as if we’d danced this game before. Talking about spending time with family and not eating in restaurants because of the cost. At another gas station I spoke with a couple about their vehicle and every moment felt like I was reliving something from the past. Even the cars we passed and clouds in the sky all resonated a similarity to a journey we once had.
The end of our day had us staying in a hotel that we’ve stayed at before. Getting there shared the same issues as we had before: wrong turns and the same parking spot (or so it seems). I lay in bed still awake watching tv after everyone else had fallen into slumber. I turned the volume down so as not to disturb my family, and proceded to watch the same shows I watched the last time we were here. Right before my turn to pass out for the night- I ended my television viewing on a couple classic episodes of “The Twilight Zone”. Episodes that I know I’ve seen. Ones that I may have even seen the last time we were here.
My life is in rerun, but now I am aware of what is going on. Question is- should I change it or just keep on repeating the same mistakes and consequences…